Medicine

I've recently applied for disability for severe depression and anxiety. I'm waiting for my first denial, as I've heard they typically deny you at least three times and you must appeal until it's approved.

I'm on a fairly high dose of antidepressant and I'm also taking antipsychotics to help with the anxiety and have an antianxiety med to go along when those two aren't enough. These pills help me maintain a semblance of normalcy. When I take them, I only feel slightly crazy. When I am stupid and miss my meds for a few days, it's like...The Titanic. It's all fun and games until the switch is flipped and I'm streaming tears, screaming, and clawing at my flesh like it's going to make it all better.

My daughter is also on medication for ADHD. She's very active ALL the time. If she's not moving, it means she's asleep, usually. One little pill and she's very calm, cool, collected and obedient.

It really becomes a problem when my pills are wearing off and I forget to give her one. Then I just start wanting to send her off to live in outer Siberia. I've heard the tundra is quite nice in the springtime. I'm sure it would only take her a few months to build a house and have it equipped with satellite TV and internet. She's a crafty lil devil. I think she gets it from her absent father. I'm certainly not that industrious. I'm much more lackadaisical. Probably why I keep getting those damned late notices. I think the only thing I won't be late for is the time of my death. I probably won't be able to put that one off.

Anyway, my meds are holding and I'm just waiting for her little pill to kick in.